White foam ribbons of the ocean
reach up to the mouth,
wrapping around the neck,
dragging the body down,
to the bottom,
to lie in wait like a hunter,
hunting her out.
She comes to me like January;
an embrace ending, another beginning -
So when will this winter end?
The ship coasts above
without her captain
steered by rebellion
all hands dining on the heart & sternum.
She brings me up to the surface,
not for air,
but to tease me,
so I can see myself at the shoreline
screaming for myself,
but I can’t hear myself,
the foam dividing us out.
The dogs hunt,
for the things they once were;
along the surface of the moon.
Arrive to shallow graves,
of lime and ash,
just our memories sniffing us out.
A long year,
of deceit and faith,
caked under tired hands,
between chipped nails,
despite the confidence to attack.
They strip the animal clean
what they don’t eat
they drop back into the sea
her roar carries the bones east
shuffling the jaw and ribs
when it finally lands on the shore
the children shout “we can make it new again”
“we can make it move and grind again”
so they rebuild it with their buckets and shovels
small hands pile on the flesh
and as the monster begins to blink and breath
we kill it again
spearing holes into its chest
watch as the waves carry it away
setting the beast free again.
We stopped to build horses
made out of bone
whispered in their ears
to teach them speech
rode them through the night
along Indian trails and fire bush
arriving to the horizon by sunrise.
The stranger’s car
drives so sleek and fast
like a living thing
one hand on the wheel
his other hand on the things I made
the creatures that put their faith in me.
This is so much better, I tell myself,
not to live by my own accordance
but to have the road laid out for me
to have the driver driving me.
A coy motherfucker
stands up in the audience
and wags his finger,
so she hits the panic button
unleashing the dogs
to eat him up.
He tickles and shouts,
but they chew him away,
tearing joints and cartilage.
She continues the performance,
a little startled,
the crowd settles.
For act two,
she saws the memory in half
as if it never happened,
into the darkness,
where the spotlight can’t catch her.
The body drifted
God knows for how long
And when it bumped against the rocks
It bleed again
The man wakes
And looks over the damage done
The slight discomfort in the lungs
Where the ribs are held up together
As if they never grew larger with age
Two wounds became a scar
A clever reminder
Like a sound that returns you back to school
Days chasing girls into the bathrooms
And so the man sets his body back into the water
The sea that Alexander made
The same waters they later buried him in
Set it all on fire again
As the body bumps into the rocks.
She causes a ruckus,
stirring the loose parts awake.
I thought we were playing touch,
when in fact we were playing tackle.
Rolling down the ruined hill,
past a tree once the color of God,
she stops and pulls me upright,
only to break my collar.
She makes a sound on my wrists like this:
‘thack, thack, thack’,
and mends me back together.
As a man, the loose parts fall sometimes,
bones out of their sockets,
then I remember:
she pulled me upright, close by,
only to break my collar.